Under my real voice

Now my mind Is chaos and complicated.I can not find out my future and aim yet.what is my aptitude?I decided go to aus for working holiday , and I ask for English skill to my self.However,it is very hard talk to native for me yet……

I feel impatient…..How did I grow up my English ability?If I came back to japan after working holiday,I can employ or independence?I hoping now,I wish I want run something my shop.or I want get license massage or diving instructor .I

 need some skill.Sooner or late ,I must make more many,over10000$!!!!気が遠いな、おい。