now I am meeting to turning point. since keep turn down job offer from ZESTY, despite paid 1500$. that reason why is for work at Ayers Rock only. look back until now, I must have accepted job offer which come to me first.was it mistake? that I was particular over work in Ayers Rock.various emotion welling up bottom of my heart.
but ”GIVE UP” is very heard for me.when I was living in Japan. I had been giving up a lot of things which what I want to do and become. about make reason for quit and give up, I will professional. this is ashamed story.so that I made own wish to my self that I quit to give up.even if I had opportunity, I must chaise it and I should keep think how to come true that things.I feel blue and impatient with lose time.but I am asking myself that what do you have left to do?I may satisfied that finished work at KINGS CREEK STATION?.
I might have come true that I wanted in AUS when finished work at there.my future….a couple years after, long time years after…I am not able to imagination.
If came back to Japan, will I take job interview that arrogance and oppress?
this is trauma. but one thing is sure.I need money more.hahaha.